Well, first and foremost it's to be stated that I passed all my exams.. I'd say one result surprised me in a negative way, while most were expected according to effort.
I will have to put in more effort though, but it's good to see that it's all up to me. I always felt like there was a force of negativity predetermining my results in life. And then I figured "why even bother".
First semester has passed, and I'm decently satisfied. I have learned how to cope with seeing human beings on a "daily" basis, and also how to not let it distract me.
I was confused - in the beginning - but now I'm not. I will not let my time be drained by humanity anymore. I'll admit it's a little challenging to reject people in a polite way. It's not personal, I just don't wish to make an effort for personal relationships. It's quite amusing and entertaining while I'm at home, online and steering my own ship.. But on a more advanced level, I'm simply not interested.
Anyhow, I've recently purchased myself an Alienware m17x.. It's only the basic version, so it's nothing too amazing. However it does it's job, and it does it like a beast.
I call him an alien with superpowers.
I'm very pleased, I can play my favorite games in less convenient enviroments now.
I've also purchased an iPhone 4S.. I'm very satisfied with this. The phone felt a little less satisfying, as I already had the iPhone 4.. However my friend had his phone broken, and he's never owned a smartphone, so I figured he could have it. As well as I wanted the upgraded camera, and I was satisfied with my phone as it was - so a minor upgrade was perfect.
Anyhow.. I wish to share a couple of stories of my summer vacation so far then:
First off, I mostly just sat at home being emo. My car didn't pass the EU test, and I had to spit out some cash I didn't have in order to get some things fixed.
Not all of the things are fixed yet (still 3 leaks), however it passed for now.
Afterwards I was short on money, and sat around feeling depressive.. I played a lot of WoW, and got more into PVP than usual.. DS is a yawnfest, so I had nothing better to do than to put more effort into this.
Eventually my mother came around, and it was nice to see her again.
Things did get messy though (as always) but not everything was her fault this time.. UPS (the people in charge of sending and delivering my Alienware) managed to mess up. They lost the laptop, and they couldn't retrack it. They lied to me for 8 or 9 days straight, saying to stay home from 9am to 7pm and wait for it, cause it was incoming "today" and as it closed in on 7, it was to be delivered "tomorrow".
Eventually Dell solved this whole mess, and an unpredictable Thursday (last week) my mother called me and told me to run out, as the delivery guy was outside.
This was a really happy moment, as I'd completely given up on it. I was prepare to cancel my purchase and request my money back, only to settle for a 14 inches one for an even more expensive price (in the shop :<).
That same day I bought the iPhone as my father's birthday money had arrived.
Around the same time (in fact, leading up to that very Thursday) my cousins had decided to visit. Now, I have not properly seen them in years.. I've had a couple of face to face encounters with them in the past 10 years or so, but otherwise very little contact. It's to be mentioned these are the only people amongst my relatives, whom I desire any form of contact with.
But I've never bothered to make much of an effort for it either, as social actities always drains me - and I've not felt a need for family either.
It was really nice to have them here, however. As family (and good ones at that, too!) they managed to respect my weird tendencies and still have a good time with me.
We got drunk 2 nights, one where we headed to a local (and dead) bar.. I got really drunk, and started offending people there (out of boredom). Stereotypical social awkward behavior of mine, enhanced with alcohol.
Second night we stayed sober, but they dropped by my place to just chat.
The following night we went to visit a friend (K) and drank there. It was a nice time, but as they had planned to travel home the following morning, the night was cut a bit short. I wasn't ready for the night to end, when it did (my mother and sister picked us up).
I had arrived a little late, though, as I wanted to wait 'til 7pm, just incase (although at that point the laptop was confirmed lost).
Overall I've had a strange and also nice summer.
At the moment I'm enjoying peace.
I've muted my phone, I'm spending most my time in bed or by my PC.. Sometimes I bring the alien with super powers to bed with me, as well :P
I've been watching The Walking Dead and Jericho. I'm always fond of post-apocalyptic topics - and I'm never fond of movies the same was as TV shows.
I don't wish to encounter a single human being, until my vacation ends (14th of August, I believe).
Also, my birthday is coming up in about a week (July 28th).. No plans, and I don't think anyone - besides my dad - has given it much thought. So I'll probably be emo and go Black Temple, as always :P Hope the glaives drop.
Ah, and.. I looked through some older pictures of myself.. I weighed a good 49kg back then, and it was hurtful to see current pictures of myself. I'm not optimal, I really need to shapen up. I will probably never be content with myself until I managed to shed off this weight.
I'm not sure what my problem is, but I can't seem to restrict myself on this area for too long at the time. It's not the food, unfortunately - cause that's easy to control. It has more to do with my alcoholic habits, and the 2 days after (where all I wanna drink is coca cola).
I've quit smoking over the summer, so I hope that will help. Not as appealing drinking alcohol without smokes.
Today I've been good.. I've drank half a glass of juice (rather than my 1-2 glasses of juice or a can of coke :p) and I had 2 crispbreads with some vegetables and cheese.
I also had 2 carrots later on, and my dinner is planned to be soysausages. Then again, food is never really thre problem, so we'll see.
As I've managed to complete most of my goals, It's time I aim for a couple of others.. And those shall be:
*Shed my weight slowly, steady and be decently healthy (as healthy just doesn't appeal :<).. I don't wanna eat meat, I don't want alot of proteins.. I wanna drink juice instead of fruits, I don't want to go low carb.. I wish to stick to a 1200 calorie-ish limit.
*Conquer my fear of flying. I want to be able to go on a simple vacation within the next 2 years. I find amusement in simply playing with google earth. I shouldn't have to watch it from my computer screen forever.
Ah well, over and out for now.
